life · Married Life · self improvement

I’m Back!

Wow! What a difference a week makes! I am now 2 weeks into this journey with the hormone pellets…2 weeks tomorrow to be exact…and I have to say, it really is all that they said it would be. I honestly have not felt this good in at least a year. I am feeling “normal” again…normal for me, anyway. The soreness and irritation lasted a little over a week, but, that is all gone now and I just feel really great.

The truth is, up until now, I have been pretty depressed. My brain has been in a fog. I have had little to no energy, no motivation, no sex drive, and my Give-A-Shitter has been on the fritz. I had gained some weight, was not sleeping, was having constant headaches, nausea, poor appetite, hot flashes, horrible night sweats, and just hurting all over (which I attributed to Fibromyalgia, however, now I am even questioning that diagnosis…but, more on that another time).

I knew something needed to change, when I would wake up wanting to cry…. and I did try all sorts of supplements that were supposed to help, but, nothing really worked. I even changed my diet. That did help a little, but, didn’t help with all I had going on, and in the end, I couldn’t maintain it, because I just didn’t care much anymore. I have always been very resistant to taking prescriptions, and hormone replacement therapy (HRT) was at the very bottom of my list of things to try, because I knew the risks. But, one can only live like that for so long…. I was desperate and not too prideful to know that I needed help.

I do believe the benefits outweigh the risks with this form of HRT. It’s safer than any other form out there, from what I have read. Besides, not having to take a pill, put on a patch, or go get injections is a huge bonus!! I just have to go through a little uncomfortableness once every 3 to 4 months. That’s a no brainer.

I have been functioning on auto pilot for quite a while now, doing the bare minimum, and really not liking myself or life very much and I didn’t even realize how bad it had become…..until it got better. I just thought it was all part of getting older and that I had to figure out how to live with it… Boy wrong and I am so thankful for this amazing little creation!

My energy, motivation, libido, creativity, zest for life…all back!!! My memory is better, brain fog has definitely lifted, hot flashes and night sweats are gone! I’m even losing that little bit of weight I put on. I feel happy and grateful and ready to tackle all the things…

I have missed me so much! It should only get better from here…

On that note… My husband is now thinking about looking into the pellet…. so he can keep up!

My friend…..If you are having any of the above issues and just don’t feel like yourself.. I highly recommend looking into the pellets. Not everyone will be a candidate or have the same results, but, it is definitely worth talking to your doctor about. As women, we often put our family ahead of ourselves and we procrastinate on our own health. But, it’s okay to love yourself enough to do what you need to do, in order to be the best you can be for your family. They deserve your best and you deserve to feel good.

Here is the link to the pellet that I am on. There is a lot of information there, including a list of providers in your area who offer this form of therapy. Most insurance companies will not cover it, in fact, most insurance will not cover any hormone therapy. In my opinion, it is worth every penny, and in my case, it’s actually the cheaper option. But, your doctor may let you work out a payment plan with them.

By the way…..I am not getting paid by anyone to share this with you. I am sharing because it is helping me and I know there are many others (women and men) out there who could benefit from this. So, I am happily passing along the information and taking you along on my journey.

As long as I have a choice, I won’t accept feeling like crap ever again. I am not done living! I am sure as hell not that old yet and I will never again be as young as I am today…

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If you would like to follow my HRT journey from the beginning you can start here

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And this will get you all caught up!

Thank you for stopping by! Enjoy your weekend! I know I will!

~Cas~

Blogging · life

What Really Matters…

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One thing you can expect from me, is that I will not be talking about politics or the pandemic here…or any of the other current issues happening in the world. I also, don’t want to know your political beliefs or how you feel about the current president, or his opponent for that matter. I won’t share mine with you either. It’s not because I don’t care about these things, it’s because in the big scheme of things….we are all human and only here for a short amount of time and in the end, it really won’t matter what we believed or thought about those things. All that will really matter, is the personal connections that we made with other humans.

Lets face it…we are already bombarded with so much information every moment of every day. I don’t know about you, but, I am kind of over it. Maybe you think that is selfish or irresponsible of me, and that’s okay. If you happen to follow me on Social Media, then you do know that I do have my own opinions on these things. However, I feel like there is plenty of information already out there and if that is what you want to read and talk about, then that is your prerogative, but, you won’t find that here.

I am hereby declaring this space, politics, virus, and drama free!

What you will find here, hopefully, is a lot of humor, maybe some inspiration, and possibly a bunch of run on sentences, and grammatical errors. But, also…someone who does care more about people and my relationships with them, than about politics or pandemics…. I hope you find that refreshing, rather than irresponsible.

This is my little sanctuary…my escape from all of the noise out there. This is where I can safely share my inner thoughts, and be my silly, dorky self, and if I make you smile along the way….well, then…mission accomplished.

Now, being the Domestic Goddess that I am, I must go get dinner started, so please excuse me….

See you soon!

~Cas~

cooking · food · life · Married Life

The Jury Is Still Out…

So…after hearing how wonderful and life changing it is, I decided to purchase an Air Fryer. I’m not convinced yet.  I purchased the Power Air Fryer Oven because it has a rotisserie and dehydrating feature, and I was pretty pumped about all the things I was going to be able to make!

I have made a few things in it that turned out decent…Beef Jerky (turned out perfect!!) Honey Roasted Salmon (although it got a little too done), Curly Fries, left over fried chicken, and cinnamon toast. Not quite the gourmet meals I had envisioned when I bought it, though.

I have also made a couple of things that were complete disasters!

Rotisserie Chicken, (which is why I bought the dang thing) It was perfectly crispy on the outside, but, still completely raw on the inside and that was after multiple cycles. I finally had to finish it in the oven.  It tasted great, but, made a huge mess and the fryer still didn’t finish the job.  Someone said that maybe my chicken was too big. Probably.  Perhaps I will try some Cornish game hens next time, they are tiny!

I also tried making Bacon, because I heard it turns out perfect…nope it was still floppy after 2 cycles and then burned to death after a 3rd shorter cycle. I probably should have watched it closer…..and talk about messy!!

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But…no sense crying over burnt bacon…

I am not going to let an air fryer defeat me!  I’m also making a big deal about how messy it gets, but truthfully,  it is VERY easy to clean. So, if I do finally figure out how to make the perfect rotisserie chicken or bacon, it will surely be worth the mess!

I’m actually a pretty darned good cook, so it’s really frustrating me! My husband says that Air Fryers are made for people who don’t know how to cook traditionally and that I’m just too advanced for it…HaHa! he always knows exactly what to say, even if he is full of it.

I do have some more recipes I am going to try soon… Crispy Buffalo Wings, Blackened Shrimp, and Fried Chicken made with panko crumbs.  I also want to experiment more with the Jerky…Turkey Jerky…Buffalo Jerky…Elk Jerky…Venison Jerky…..what other kinds of jerky are there??

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Here is the jerky I made…

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I know it doesn’t look great, but, I’m telling you, it was delicious!  I say “was” because my husband ate it all…he shared some with me though. *smirks*

I refuse to give up on my air fryer. I am determined to master it and love it…or sell it in the next garage sale. Whichever comes first.

Do you own an air fryer?  What have you made in yours? Any tips?  Help a girl out!

 

~Cas~

Blogging · life

One Week In….

 

It has been a week since my pellet insertion….

I haven’t noticed a huge difference, yet.  Maybe a bit more energy and a few less hot flashes.  Oh…and I’m not as easily irritated by EVERY LITTLE THING… So, I guess there are some improvements, but, it isn’t this “amazing” thing like everyone said it would be.  Then again, I was also told it could take up to 4 weeks to really notice any major changes, and I’m only a week in.  I was never very good at being patient. Sigh.

I had a lot of soreness on my butt cheek at the incision site….and it’s still a little sore, but, getting better.  It’s also still a little swollen… and up until yesterday it was super itchy at the injection site!  It was everything I could do not to scratch my ass in public. Can you imagine? In this current culture? I would have most likely been arrested or, at the very least, “buttscratch shamed”.  That all seems to be calming down now, thankfully.

I have been thinking about sex more…not quite as often as I used to, but, it just happens more naturally like it used to. So…there’s that as well. *blushes*

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And…who would have thought that THAT would always be an important thing? But, it really is. I think thoughts and feelings about sex, are directly tied to our feelings about ourselves. If we don’t feel good, we don’t feel sexy…and on the same token, if we feel sexy, we feel good. I’m not an expert or anything, but that seems to be, from my experience anyway, the way it is.  I’m just glad to be feeling somewhat like myself again…..Slowly but surely. Hopefully.  I’m pretty sure my husband is glad too…

Sorry, if that is TMI, but, I did say I was going to share my journey with you. Just sayin’ *shrugs*

I have also really been wanting a puppy. I have no clue what that is all about.  It actually started before the pellet insertion, so don’t worry, I don’t think it’s a side effect.  I need to get a grip though…a puppy? Really? I think I have about all I can handle with my current 5 year old dog and my 51 year old husband.  It used to be babies…now it’s puppies. Oi.

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Anyhoo…I am staying busy with some artwork during this pandemic….not to mention this summer heat!! Oh My God is it hot! We have been in the triple digits all week and tomorrow (Saturday) is supposed to be the hottest day of the week! This is the kind of heat where you don’t even want to move, and if you are out in it too long you can actually get very sick.

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I am so ready for fall!  How about you?  I mean, unless you are one of those weirdos who loves the heat and the sun and spends all day at the pool or the beach or just laying out. How do you do that?? I can’t even. I don’t know how anyone can stand it. I am definitely not one of those people, never have been. I fry after only a few minutes, literally. Even with sunscreen, I can step outside and within 5 minutes I am sunburned. I also can’t really tolerate the heat. I blame it on being a redhead, but, really I just hate it. You can’t get naked enough to get comfortable, and when it is this hot, it’s not even cool in the shade. So, I will hide out in my comfy central air conditioned home…thank you very much.

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I’ll probably start sharing some of my projects here. It will be fun to have a place where I can look back and see my progress. I’m hoping there will be progress anyway, otherwise I will hate myself for all the money have been spending on supplies. Although, I have to say, it is fun! I am really enjoying exploring my creative side, and discovering new things. Even if it’s a total fail…at least I tried.

AND…I have a new obsession to add to my current obsession, which I will tell you all about soon!!  I just ordered all the supplies to get started. I’m pretty excited about it.

I guess that’s about it for now….

Time to pour a drink and enjoy the weekend!! Hope you do the same. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

~Cas~

 

 

 

 

 

 

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So it begins…

Today, I visited my doctor to go over my bloodwork and have the hormone pellet inserted. I was nervous, but, it didn’t hurt at all! I did have a reaction to the numbing shot a few minutes later. My heart started to race and I felt dizzy for a bit…I think this may be due to there possibly being epinephrine in the shot, since it has happened at my dentist office before. I will ask about that at my follow up appointment, in 6 weeks.  

I’m not allowed to do any leg or glut exercises for 5 days….I’m really upset about that *wink* and I can’t go swimming or take a bath for a couple of days either. Don’t worry, I can still shower!! I was also sent home with a couple of recommended supplements. Other than a tender butt cheek, that’s about all I have to report at this time… 

My doctor said I will be feeling like a teenager again soon…so now we wait for the magic to happen…..

In the meantime…..I’m going to go make myself a drink and enjoy the weekend. Hope you do the same!!

Cheers!

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Blogging · self improvement

How Am I This Old Already?

It has been a while since I have updated my little blog here.  I’m not sure why.. life, I guess. Reading back on some of my posts, I honestly think I just didn’t have a lot to write about. I do love how I can come back here anytime and it’s always waiting for me, like an old faithful friend. 

I have entered a new chapter of my life.. it’s a very exciting little adventure, with many ups and downs. It’s called menopause. Well, it’s technically called Perimenopause because I haven’t quite reached the full on Menopause level yet. I knew this was coming, but, I wasn’t ready for it. I mean, yeah I’m 52, and yeah my body is definitely beginning to feel and show its age, but, in my mind, I am still in my 30s. However, my body quickly reminds me, with every new ache, gray hair, and wrinkle, and hot flash, that I am indeed in my 50’s. So, its high time I accept it and try to embrace it.

Honestly, it’s not all that bad. It’s just part of life and something that I really need to be thankful for, because it’s definitely better than the alternative. It’s just unpleasant…but, I may be getting some relief soon…

Tomorrow, I am going in for a small procedure, to have a hormone pellet insertion done. Have you heard of this? The doctor makes a tiny incision in the hip area and inserts a small pellet, a little larger than the size of a grain of rice. Then tapes it up and sends you on your way. It slowly dissolves, releasing Testosterone and sometimes Estrogen, depending on your needs, into your blood stream. It usually lasts around 3 to 4 months, before it needs to be done again.

This is what it looks like…

It is supposed to be much safer than pills, patches, or injections and it’s definitely more convenient! I only recently learned about it, but, apparently it is the new fountain of youth according to friends who are using this form of hormone replacement therapy. They have more energy, little to no hot flashes (which are the bane of my existence at the moment) are losing weight, having less chronic pain, and lots of great sex again! So, of course I said, sign me up!

I have decided to document my experience with it here….for myself….and just in case anyone who might read this is interested in the pellet, or my experience with it, or both. I’m a little nervous, but, also really excited to see if I will be feeling like a teenager again soon! My husband better get ready, just in case! (tee hee)

Wish me luck and stay tuned….

 

Chili · Comfort Foods

The Great Chili Debate

To bean or not to bean…

This time of year makes me want comfort foods, and Chili is one of my favorites.  How do you like your chili?  Personally, I am a simple Texas girl, so I prefer simple Texas Chili, and by simple, I mean lots of meat, lots of bold flavor, maybe with a little shredded cheese on top and a side of cornbread, but nothing else…. especially not BEANS!

Just Say NO!

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Beans do not belong in Chili, in fact, I think they take away from the flavor, rather than add to it. I have friends and family on both sides of this debate, but, the ones who like beans in their Chili are absolutely wrong!

Just kidding…. sort of.  

So…how do you like your chili?  Do you have a favorite recipe?  If so, please share it with me (even if it includes beans) I’d like to try it… prove me wrong!

On that note…..

Here is my tried and true Chili recipe. Let me know if you try it! 

Cas’ Texas Chili

2 lbs ground beef or chili meat

1 medium onion, diced

4 cloves garlic, minced

12 oz can of beer of choice

1 can tomato sauce

4 cups water

2 tbs chili powder

1 tbs cumin

1/4 tsp cayenne

1/4 tsp cocoa powder

2 tsp garlic powder

2 tsp onion powder

2 tsp dried oregano

Salt and pepper to taste

Brown beef in large pot until only slightly pink. Add onions and garlic and sauté until vegetables are translucent and beef is cooked through (about 10 minutes)  Drain off fat, if you prefer.

Add in remaining ingredients, bring to a boil, then cover, reduce heat to medium and simmer for 30 to 45 minutes (or longer if time) to let the flavors develop. I usually cook mine for 1 to 2 hours on low.  Stir and taste occasionally, and add in more seasonings to taste.  The longer the chili cooks, the thicker it will get and the better it will taste. If you don’t have hours to cook and want to speed up the thickening process,  just add a tbsp. of corn starch to 1/4 cup of water and stir well, then pour into chili and cook until thickened. 

NOTE: For a Keto or low carb version, do everything the same, except use a light beer, and to thicken mix 1 tbs of Xanthan Gum to 1/4 cup of water instead of cornstarch.

Blogging · self improvement

Consistency Is Not My Super Power

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I wish I were one of those people who could just decide to do something and then follow through, consistently. If I were, I would probably be one of those Instagram millionaires, traveling the globe, wearing amazing clothes, eating amazing food, taking amazing photos, by now. That’s what I like to tell myself, anyway, inconsistency is my excuse. Maybe I’m just not that ambitious, or maybe I’m just lazy. I don’t know. I do know that I have dreams and goals, some of which I have accomplished and others I have just let go of. Maybe the ones I let go of weren’t really meant for me. Maybe I just haven’t yet found that one thing that incites the kind of passion it takes to stay consistent. Maybe consistency is the key to creating passion… *shrugs*

I have been feeling a strong desire to create something lately. I feel like I am at my best when I am being creative in any way. I love when I get inspiration of nowhere, my problem is often in implementing those ideas.. or in finishing what I have started. I probably have 50 different projects around my house that I have started and then just got bored or got distracted and forgot about them. Yeah, its a problem.

But, I want to change that. I want to be better at staying consistent and finishing what I start, especially before starting something new.

I have been thinking a lot about what it is that I truly enjoy and what it is that I am truly good at. Cooking. I love to cook, especially for others. I love seeing them enjoy the food I prepare. It makes my heart happy. I love sharing my recipes with others too, and then hearing what they thought about it, if they try it.. I love just getting in the kitchen and trying new recipes and creating new recipes. Sometimes they turn out amazing and other times, not so much…but, I enjoy the process just as much as I enjoy the end result. I love food, but, I don’t really consider myself a foodie. I eat when I am hungry, stop when I am full, and I really don’t go out of my way to find or get a favorite food. The first bite of anything is usually the best anyway, in my humble opinion.. Don’t get me wrong, I do have my favorite foods and if they are in front of me I can get downright giddy. But, in all honesty, I think I prefer cooking great food, more than I enjoy eating great food. I know, I’m a weirdo.

I also enjoy writing. I don’t know that I am particularly good at writing, but, I do enjoy it. There is something very therapeutic about typing my thoughts out and just seeing where they take me. Sometimes, I surprise myself. I usually just write the way I talk, as if I am having a conversation with a friend. Nothing technical or profound, just me, rambling on…

I also enjoy positive feedback…I actually thrive on it. I think we all do.

Another thing I really enjoy, is photography. It’s something I want to get better at. My husband bought me a great camera for Christmas a few years ago, and I have yet to put it to really good use. I can’t even tell you how many times I have been out driving and wished for my camera! That is about to change!

I have come to realize that I need to do more of the things I really enjoy and I really need to work on being more consistent in those things. I feel like I am still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up. But, I don’t think there is anything wrong with continuing to learn and question and grow. Maybe it’s because I turned 50 this year (almost 51, now) that I have become more introspective, all I know is that I need to stop putting myself on the backburner… (pun intended)

I keep returning to this blog… Probably because it encompasses all the creative things that I really enjoy. Maybe, it’s within these things that I will find my Super Power. I want to explore that more.

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This is going to sound weird, but…

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I use my timer for everything!

Well, not everything that would be weird! I can just see my husband and I getting frisky in bed, and I suddenly tell him to wait while I set my timer…

“Okay, we have exactly 15 minutes…ready, set, go!”

Yeah, that would probably kill the mood very quickly!

Seriously though, I use my timer for all the things that I need to get done during the day. Such as cleaning, working out, writing, and any other tasks I need or want to tackle. Why? Because I am a perfectionist, who also happens to be a little ADD, as well as a procrastinator. It’s not the best combination. But, it’s me.

Being a perfectionist, means if I do begin something, such as deciding to clean out ONE drawer in my kitchen. That one drawer can easily turn into a major whole kitchen clean out and rearrangement, with all the drawers and cabinets emptied all at once. Before, I know it, I find a photo of one of my kids, that somehow ended up in the middle of the mess, which then leads me to get on Facebook to check on them. Then I end up scrolling through facebook for 2 hours looking at videos of dogs. You get my point. I get absolutely nothing else done for the rest of the day and end up scrambling just to get a load of laundry done and dinner started, if I can even find a pan and a spatula.

As a procrastinator, I often feel like it’s never the right time to begin something. I know that in most cases I won’t be able to finish it that day, so I dont want to even start, because I don’t want to take a chance on having to quit in the middle. I put it off and put it off and put it off, then it never gets done and every time I open a kitchen drawer, it mocks me.

So, I have learned to use a timer to help keep me focused and help keep me from feeling overwhelmed. I learned how to do this about 20 years ago. I have not perfected it, because I still procrastinate and still get distracted, but, for the most part, it keeps me on track. You should have seen me 20 years ago! I was a hot mess.

This probably sounds silly to those of you who are super focused, organized, and efficient. Like, my mom, but, unfortunately, I did not inherit the born organized gene. I need help to keep my life together!

Here’s how it works…its simple. I usually just set my timer for 10 to 15 minutes per task, depending on how much time I have and what else I need to get done. In the case of the kitchen drawer, for example, I would choose a drawer to start with, set my timer for 15 minutes, then work diligently and as quickly as possible, trying to beat the timer. I throw away junk and organize one drawer at a time, moving quickly to the next drawer, until the timer goes off. Then I stop! I now have at least one, but, usually several drawers cleaned out by the time it dings. Thats more drawers than I had done 15 minutes earlier, and now I am free to go on to other things! Even another drawer if I want to. Progress, not perfection!

It’s amazing what can be accomplished in 15 minutes! A task that might seem like it’s going to take forever can actually get completed in that amount of time, or less, in most cases. Setting a timer gives the perfectionist in me permission to stop and move on to other things. Otherwise, I would never get anything else done, because of the procrastinator with ADD, in me.

My timer has become a very valuable life tool. It helps me get things done! If you can relate give it a try! Let me know if it helps you.

Oops! My time is up for today 😉 Thank you for stopping by… See you soon!

~Cas

Grilled · Seafood · Uncategorized

Grilled Salmon Steak

In Texas, we cook outdoors pretty much year round! It’s never too cold or wet to grill something yummy.  I love grilled salmon and its so good for you! Perfect for a Keto diet, since its full of healthy fats!

This is what I am cooking tonight!

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This is what you need:

1 lb wild caught salmon steaks or filets, skin on

1 garlic clove, minced

1 tsp fresh rosemary finely chopped

1 cup extra virgin olive oil

1 tsp sea salt

1/4 tsp black pepper

1 tsp fresh parsely, finely chopped

1 tsp lime juice

Here’s what to do:

  • Wash the salmon under cold running water and pat dry with a kitchen towel. Set aside
  • In a large bowl, combine garlic, rosemary, olive oil, salt, pepper, parsley, and lime juice. Mix until well incorporated and soak the steaks in this marinade.  Using a spoon, coat well and refrigerate for 30 minutes.
  • Preheat the grill to a medium-high heat. Drain the salmon and place on grill, skin side down, if using filets
  • Grill for 3-4 minutes on each side
  • Remove from the grill and serve immediately

 

If you prefer,  you can pan sear these on the cook top.  Heat a skillet over med heat, place salmon in hot pan, skin side down if using filets. Turn over once skin is browned, approx 3 to 4 minutes, then another 3 to 4 minutes on the other side.

I will be serving this with a nice big green salad, with vinegar and oil dressing!

Nutrition Info Per Serving

Cal: 304   Protien: 32g   Net Carbs: 1.7g   Fat: 18g

Enjoy! See you soon!

~Cas